Have you been feeling rundown? Yeah, me too. It turns out that Mercury is in retrograde from October 4-25. Which basically means it's a bad time to make big decisions or take too much on. Almost two weeks ago, I decided I need a break from social media. Keeping up with Facebook, Twitter and Instagram just got to be too much. I was completely sucked in, checking it first thing in the morning, and last thing at night. No wonder I couldn't sleep. All that information was swirling around in my brain, and getting quiet was impossible. I'm a big believer in feeding your spirit, but somehow I let all my obligations fill the void of really looking at what's been going on with me. I've felt anxious and fidgety lately. I spend my free time looking for new cities to live in (hello, Portland), or obsessing over my fall capsule wardrobe project. And those things can be fun, in the right context. But not when you're clearly trying to avoid something important. And for me, it's my health. My fibromyalgia symptoms have worsened recently, and I haven't wanted to face it. I've taken on way too many commitments, which have been great opportunities for my advocacy work, but bad for my health.
I am exhausted. From the pain. From the lack of energy. From the inability to fully use my body.
Disconnecting from social media was a fairly easy strategy to start with, but I'm going to need to do a lot more than that to get well. I've finally made an appointment with a rheumatologist to see what she might offer in terms of answers and potential solutions to my condition. But if I've learned anything over the last few years, it's that I have to advocate for my own health. I have to do the research and be open to trying different modalities for healing. And with Mercury in retrograde this month, what better time to reflect on my life choices and take stock of what is and isn't working anymore.
I don't intend to make any big decisions right now, other than slowing down my pace, and making time for more rest and self-care. That includes things like:
- Going to bed earlier
- Eating better (gotta check that sugar addiction)
- Continuing my yoga practice
- Saying "no" more
I tend to be a real perfectionist, so I might need add one more thing to that list: Let go of the idea that I will do these things consistently and perfectly.
I'd like to be blogging more, but if you don't see a post for a while, just assume I'm sleeping, or reading a book, or cooking a healthy meal for my husband and I.
Until next time,